3rd day into new year, I am already feeling like this? Wow bring me something better in 2013 would'ya

Ever had someone that you see almost everyday, but hardly talk, only greet, and only some small conversations, not much feeling but you respect a lot, not much common topic and whenever you two talk you still jitter even after more than half a year? Then out of the sudden, the person called you and break you into pieces, you end up feeling the pain you avoided for months and then now you think back, its still stinging you??

I don't know how to explain this feeling but its terrifying, I am helpless, I don't know what to do, what's right what's wrong to do. I wanna help, but I know I'm not obliged to. I know nobody would agree for me to help. I think its really painful to watch human learning the hard way.. I personally learn things the hard way, that's what my best friend told me. I didn't even realize that, but now I can see it in others, human have to learn the hard ways at times.

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