Its been six months since I hit this relationship, yeah its sudden, it wasn't expected from all my friends, and trust me, even myself. Yes I had some issues with myself and how I can't get over my ex boyfriend or  sort. All those have been solved, and those unsettled feeling have been gotten rid off.. This necklace, you gave me for a very belated birthday (cause we only got together after my 18th birthday) I'm wearing it for half a year now. Trust me, till now I still think its quite gay hanging our faces on me, everywhere I go. People tend to stare at it, its just weird. 

I always try to remind myself to not get so attached so quickly, must keep that distance, and to gain my trust? Its really gonna take a long while for me to tell you everything, every pain I feel. I don't reveal myself immediately, I can't accept how fake people can be, how stupid I'll be if I ever allow anyone to fool me just because I hand them my trust too early. I can't stand hypocrites, I will stop trusting them, and even distance myself from them. I guess its just nature? So to some who don't know me, I'm prolly anti-social, very fierce to them. But no, if not why would I have so so so many good friends, best friends? 

I'm really thankful that you are changing your ways, and still constantly showering me with love, fetching me from work even though I've been working at Taka now, you still come all the way just to send me home. I'm really thankful, loved and appreciate it so much. You helped me so much when I don't have enough to survive my days, and pay for my every meal. I know its a very bad habit for you to always pay for me, but you don't allow me to pay my own. What to do? 

Thank you, rowy <3